Well...

I haven't posted in a while.
So here's a post.

I have my ultrasound today but at this point I really don't know if I'm going to make it.
I hate being so dependent on my husband. I should be getting my license soon, and once I do, everything will become so much easier for me. But as of right now I hate having to rely on anyone else other than myself.

I've always been independent. My mom said I started trying to make money at the age of 6 by doing things for the neighbors and such. I never really knew what it was like to fully rely on someone. Obviously, I relied on my mom for food and a roof over my head, but I always had something on the side that I brought in, that I worked for. But now here I am.

I try reminding myself that I do just as much for this family as he does, but it doesn't feel like it. I hate feeling this way.