I haven't posted in a while.
So here's a post.
I have my ultrasound today but at this point I really don't know if I'm going to make it.
I hate being so dependent on my husband. I should be getting my license soon, and once I do, everything will become so much easier for me. But as of right now I hate having to rely on anyone else other than myself.
I've always been independent. My mom said I started trying to make money at the age of 6 by doing things for the neighbors and such. I never really knew what it was like to fully rely on someone. Obviously, I relied on my mom for food and a roof over my head, but I always had something on the side that I brought in, that I worked for. But now here I am.
I try reminding myself that I do just as much for this family as he does, but it doesn't feel like it. I hate feeling this way.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Happy New Years!
Dylan surprisingly woke up at exactly 11:59PM for feeding. So I waited till 12:00AM to feed him, only so that I can enter 2011 kissing my baby.
It's gonna be an amazing year. I can already tell :D
It's gonna be an amazing year. I can already tell :D
Friday, December 31, 2010
My year.
January;
Davids 21st birthday.
Mom's 45th birthday.
Deanna (my sisters) 15th birthday.
February;
Found out I was having a boy and named him Dylan.
March;
Found out David was getting restationed to Cali. Of course as his wife, I have to join.
April;
Moved to Cali. First time without my mama.
May;
Got our first place together :)
Bought our pet snakes.
June;
Moved into our permanent place on base housing.
July;
Gave birth to a beautiful baby :)
August;
Went to visit Hawaii.
September;
Dylan began cooing and smiling!
October;
Dyls first halloween.
November;
Dylans first thanksgiving.
I made my first thanksgiving meal without mama.
December;
Found out I was pregnant again.
Dylan began crawling, pulling himself up, sitting unassisted, started sippy cups.
<3
Davids 21st birthday.
Mom's 45th birthday.
Deanna (my sisters) 15th birthday.
February;
Found out I was having a boy and named him Dylan.
March;
Found out David was getting restationed to Cali. Of course as his wife, I have to join.
April;
Moved to Cali. First time without my mama.
May;
Got our first place together :)
Bought our pet snakes.
June;
Moved into our permanent place on base housing.
July;
Gave birth to a beautiful baby :)
August;
Went to visit Hawaii.
September;
Dylan began cooing and smiling!
October;
Dyls first halloween.
November;
Dylans first thanksgiving.
I made my first thanksgiving meal without mama.
December;
Found out I was pregnant again.
Dylan began crawling, pulling himself up, sitting unassisted, started sippy cups.
<3
Thursday, December 30, 2010
I can't help myself...
So my friend, I'll call her Molly, is back with her ex.
I never knew the full story, all I really knew was when they got back together another one of our friends, I'll call her Sally, didn't support it and is no longer her friend.
He left her when she had her baby, but mainly because there was a lot of confusing with who the father was. She had had relations with another guy during one of their break ups.
Well Sally told me that Mollys boyfriend used to hit her when pregnant.
I really want to ask Molly about it, but I feel like it's not really my business.
But I can't help myself. I care about her, I don't want her to get hurt again. I didn't know their break up was that seriously.
Fuck. I hate this pickle. I wish I just didn't know.
I never knew the full story, all I really knew was when they got back together another one of our friends, I'll call her Sally, didn't support it and is no longer her friend.
He left her when she had her baby, but mainly because there was a lot of confusing with who the father was. She had had relations with another guy during one of their break ups.
Well Sally told me that Mollys boyfriend used to hit her when pregnant.
I really want to ask Molly about it, but I feel like it's not really my business.
But I can't help myself. I care about her, I don't want her to get hurt again. I didn't know their break up was that seriously.
Fuck. I hate this pickle. I wish I just didn't know.
He's getting so big.
It's so unreal how fast time is going.
I feel like just yesterday I was sitting on the operating table bawling my eyes out because I just got the most beautiful baby boy cut out of me.
It feels like just yesterday he hated tummy time and had absolutely no head control, and now here he is crawling around the entire house.
He now crawls, pulls himself up, sits unassisted, and some other stuff I'm unable to think about at this moment. He also has 4 teeth. And have I mentioned he's only 5 months? He's definitely ahead of his game here.
I couldn't be more proud of my baby boy. I am so blessed to call myself his mother and him my son. He's is pure perfection.
I still stand in complete awe that not only did I create life, but I created such a perfect little baby.
I feel like just yesterday I was sitting on the operating table bawling my eyes out because I just got the most beautiful baby boy cut out of me.
It feels like just yesterday he hated tummy time and had absolutely no head control, and now here he is crawling around the entire house.
He now crawls, pulls himself up, sits unassisted, and some other stuff I'm unable to think about at this moment. He also has 4 teeth. And have I mentioned he's only 5 months? He's definitely ahead of his game here.
I couldn't be more proud of my baby boy. I am so blessed to call myself his mother and him my son. He's is pure perfection.
I still stand in complete awe that not only did I create life, but I created such a perfect little baby.
Going out.
We're really not doing anything special. Just going to get a loan so that tomorrow we can fix our car.
But David went to nap and said he'll take baby. Well Dylan didn't go to sleep and was crying. I didn't hear him till after I got out.
I wanted to get ready and get all dressed up for once. I haven't dressed nicely or put makeup on since I was like 30 weeks pregnant with Dylan. I really wanted to today, but doesn't look like Dylan is letting that happen.
I wonder what he thinks a half and hour nap is really gonna do for him anyways?
But David went to nap and said he'll take baby. Well Dylan didn't go to sleep and was crying. I didn't hear him till after I got out.
I wanted to get ready and get all dressed up for once. I haven't dressed nicely or put makeup on since I was like 30 weeks pregnant with Dylan. I really wanted to today, but doesn't look like Dylan is letting that happen.
I wonder what he thinks a half and hour nap is really gonna do for him anyways?
Wordpress.
So I was going to try out wordpress and make a blog on there, see if I like it more. I'm still bouncing around to see what blog would fit me best.
That was waaaay to confusing for me. Personally, I think I would like it. But dayummm, too many pages and settings and such.
Also, my computer is doing some weird thing. When I hit enter some 'edit plan settings' thing pops up. Kinda annoying. I have to hit shift + enter.
That was waaaay to confusing for me. Personally, I think I would like it. But dayummm, too many pages and settings and such.
Also, my computer is doing some weird thing. When I hit enter some 'edit plan settings' thing pops up. Kinda annoying. I have to hit shift + enter.
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